Don't Leave My Mind

I Want Your Ugly

I find myself checking your page all the time. Checking mine to see if you wrote me something. I have constant butterflies/moths in my stomach because I wonder what you are doing. What you are thinking. Do you think of me at all? Do you miss me? Do your emotions catch up to you like a tidal wave? They do to me.

"Give it time...the pain will pass," I tell myself, "I can do better." I wish I would listen and in way believe it. I don't want anyone else. I want you and all your imperfections.

Man, do I feel pathetic.

Come back.

I will not grovel at your feet and beg you back though. I am strong enough and secure enough to know that I won't and can't stoop to that level.

"I want your ugly, I want your disease. I want your everything as long as its free. I want your love. Love, love, love, I want your love."

Empty

I hide behind a broken smile

Tears

I feel empty, alone, and forgotten.

How dare you play with my heart and so carelessly toss me away.

I want you, but I am not weak enough to throw myself at you.

I am strong, confident in who I am, and have so much love to give.

You can see it, but you don't want it.

All your promises and hopes for us were poison.

Congratulations. You fooled me to believe you loved me.

Fuck you! I know there is someone out there, someday, that will appreciate and reciprocate what I give to them.

You want to live a life alone and without romantic ties to anyone. Have fun with that. Prepare to be disappointed when you find yourself lonely and alone.

Don't go complaining to me about it because I'll only say I told you so.

So, go now. Have fun running away from your problems. See how far it gets you.